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[UsMerseyMumUK]

The spending part is bad, I have overtaken some seriously big projects thanks to the mania! The house I am living in is one of them! It shouldnt not have even been fit for habitation, but I have made it! Almost. LOL


We are paying off the last of a loan, that we shouldnt have gotten, last payment Wednesday and I made my husband swear to not agree to getting another one! (We've known the guy for years and he is very manipulative to getting you to take a loan!! AHH!)


I find I spend too much time on the net because it helps with the ADHD I have I can bounce around online for an hour and my browser history would suggest I'd been on it for a day.

[Tromain]

Another BP sufferer here, with added manic depression to boot.

Was first diagnosed with BP/MD when I was 12, but looking back I have suffered with them since I was 8. I've tried the meds twice in my life, didn't like how I reacted to them, either sleeping 20 hours a day, or having no passion for life just sitting around like a zombie not bothered about anything.

Over the years I've found that when things start to flare up I just put a game into my PC/360/Wii and get lost in the game, blocking out the world around me. Drives my wife crazy that I shut myself away from the world like that, but it's the only coping mechanism I have found. Smoking used to take the edge off things and help me stay relaxed, I treated the inhalation and exhaling of smoke as a form of meditation which is why I always failed to quit smoking using the NRT stuff.

Since taking up vapeing I've noticed that I am so much calmer day to day and my mind seems much more focused then it ever was during smoking, still couldn't do without my games though!

Luckily I don't take after my brother, who also suffers from BP, he doesn't seem to have any coping mechanisms and ends up going off the rails and getting thrown into prison, fingers crossed that's all behind him now as he found a woman he loves and has managed to stay out of prison for 4 years now(quite a feat considering he's 39 and spent roughly 20 years in total behind bars!)

Anyone else have trouble explaining exactly what BP does to them to their partners? Tried many many times but I can never find the right words so my wife truly doesn't understand what it does to my mind. The only thing she has managed to grasp is that I become very OCD about things and suddenly start throwing money around on luxury items(video games mainly) when I'm really down, compared to my normal self being very strict with money and scrimping and saving to provide for our son and never buying anything for myself!

Oh dear.. this is much longer then I intended it to be! I'll shut up now!

[todd]

Tromain, just forwarded that onto my missus for a laugh as that could so be me you are describing there LOL

[hissie]

At the moment my current meds regime is:

Seroquel, Lamotrigne & Prozac.

I was feeling pretty stable on this combination, then out of nowhere, I had a huge amount of stress piled on my shoulders & now I'm up & down like a yoyo. Can be crying one minute, then giggling uncontrollably the next. Also, my anxiety & agitation has been through he roof, so am taking Lorazepam prn.

It's proving to be a bloomin' nitemare. Speaking of nitemares, I have been having a lot of those lately & trouble sleeping too. Also, been struggling with being alone aswell, so am having to find people who can keep me company.

[masterchip]

We all here for you hissie and know what you going through,here to help if needed.
Long soak in bath and good vape takes the edge off for me.
I have removed most forms of stress from my life now, the drawback is very little money and work part time. But I feel so much better for it
I spend most of my evenings on here to take my mind off real life which also helps at night.

[hissie]

Thanks masterchip. It is really comforting to speak with others who are plagued by this broken brain condition lol.

I'm going to see my care co-ordinator on Friday, however, she is pretty useless & I know she will say it's your personality disorder traits that are causing me to feel like this. She seems to forget that Bipolar is my primary diagnosis, which she thinks is "cured" by medication.

[Tromain]

The nightmares are really no fun! Bane of my life, made even worse since my son was born and he has become the #1 attraction in the nightmares. I do get a lot of nights where I can't be alone, I've found my xbox 360 to be a god send with that, I have a good amount of friends from the states that I join party chat with at night while the missus is asleep, it's very comforting to hear their voices even if they aren't in the same room.

Been really bogged down over the last few days, I'm running on 3 hours sleep and have been awake since Sunday morning, just can't shut down and when I eventually pass out I'm back awake in a cold sweat within 20 minutes. Not sure what has set me off this time as things have become much less stressful since I started vapeing, what with saving £75 a month on not buying baccy.

Edited by Tromain, Yesterday, 10:28 PM.

[UsMerseyMumUK]

Tro, add me on xbox psykotikangel... I dont talk on mic very often cause my husband has broken every single one of them, but we can game a bit here and there!

[Tromain]

Sent a friends request your way

If anyone else wants to friend me I'm OBGN Tromain on the 360, Tromain666 on Steam.

Edited by Tromain, Today, 09:18 AM.